Thursday, October 16, 2008

It Just About Broke My Heart

Another topic was planned for today's post: something along the lines of my personal beef with fast food joints - pardon the bun ... I mean pun. That will have to wait because I want to talk about something else.

My daughter has the biggest and sweetest heart. It's amazing how sensitive and thoughtful she is for being four years old. Today I have been feeling pretty bad. Due to Fibromyalgia my muscles have been hurting and my head aching. As soon as my husband got home from work I hobbled up the stairs to take a hot bath. Once out of the bath I went into my room to find a card sitting on the bed. The front read "MoM - FEEL BEttEr". It was very legible and nicely written. Inside is a face with spiky hair (my son), face with ears on the top of its head (our cat) and various other less recognizable scribblings. On the back it says "10-16-08". Needless to say I was touched.

I went downstairs to thank my family. I found out that my daughter made the card all by herself with only a little help on how to spell some of the words. She told me she loves me and wants me to feel better. My sweet girl.

Then I wanted to go back upstairs to lay down and rest. She begged to come up with me. I told her that I needed to be by myself for a while (loud noises and bright lights aggravate my symptoms) and asked her to stay downstairs with Daddy. She started to cry. My heart sank. I then heard her crying to Daddy, "Daaad, I am just sad because Mom doesn't feel good and I want to lay down with her so she can feel betteeerrr!" I almost started to cry as I sneaked up the stairs.

I feel incredibly blessed to have such a wonderful family ... and like a terrible person for not feeling well enough to snuggle with my good-natured child.


PeePaw said...

You have such a sweet daughter!! I am proud to be able to call her my granddaughter.

I hope you are feeling better!

Kelly said...

She IS really sweet! Just last night out of the blue she thanked me for making dinner ... then she didn't eat it.

I am feeling better now, thank you!

heather said...

It must have been so hard to go up those stairs, feeling awful, physically, and guilty...but know your kids will grow in compassion and empathy. Those qualities will strengthen them throughout their lives. You are an amazingly strong woman, they will see that, and be blessed by that!

BTW My mom struggled with her health during my early years (up until I was about 12). It was hard at times, but God carried us through and we all learned to rely on Him in some good ways.